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How Grief Affects Your Spending Decisions

After our recent personal tragedy, I have been experiencing feelings I thought were a thing of the past for me: Strong and sudden impulses to spend money mindlessly, and without any particular rhyme or reason to it. In keeping with our strategy for coping with our grief, I shared these concerns with my better half, and it after airing them out, I discovered that this is a typical reaction in times like these.

My partner, who has a consumer-facing role in banking, could tell me, as I shared my thoughts and proposed that we buy a new car, that she had many encounters with people in dire financial straits who confided that their troubles started in similar situations. Whether it stemmed from unfathomable grief such as the loss of a close loved one, or seemingly less severe adverse events like not doing well enough in some aspect of life, people had pointed to events like these as the catalysts that put their finances in a tailspin. Why is it that I just proposed to my partner that we hire someone to remodel our entire house and that people tend to make poor money decisions in hard times?

Control and Rewards

There is no one definite and correct answer to the question posed above but based on my own experiences I have, through much introspection, some reflections on the matter. At the most base level, I believe we humans make poor decisions, especially as it relates to money and spending, in hard times to gain perceived control. When we feel down, it is more often than not the result of events outside our control. There was nothing I could do to affect the events that lead to my daughter being given a mere week to live. Similarly, there is little one can do to regain their job after a firing, or to restore the trust in someone who has committed a profound betrayal.

Struck by unexpected misfortune outside of our control, a whole range negative emotions take hold. Left without power to alter the adversarial outcome, we feel defenceless and paralysed at best, or worse yet, disenfranchised and impotent. Painfully aware that there are no quick fixes for grief, sorrow or loss, and that overcoming these feelings is a long and windy process, we look for quick fixes. We become desperate for something we can control, an outlet where we can force immediate changes simply by saying, doing, or buying.

Further compounding this urge to reclaim a modicum of control over our situation by spending money, most of us raised in Western societies associate spending money with rewards. In our childhood, we finally get to buy that new bike after dutifully saving our hard earned allowances for months or even years. As we transition into adulthood, this is further reinforced as we work hard for bonuses, and the opportunity to spend more money. The act of spending money has become a societal reward, and because doing good leads to both feeling good and buying things, many of us subsequently conflate buying stuff with feeling good.

Is it any wonder then, as we find ourselves at our lowest point, that we turn to mindless and irrational spending in an attempt to make ourselves feel better, and to reclaim control over our lives? In my sorrow, I have gained not just an understanding of my personal psychological shortcomings, but humility and empathy for those who find themselves in financial difficulties after going through personal tragedies. While I previously would be prone to carelessly brushing such circumstances off as a lack of discipline, I now realise that were it not for my incredible spouse; I would find myself in the same situation before long. I did, of course, follow up that realisation with a suggestion that we buy a brand new house, because, I argued, surely we deserved it after being forced to go through something like this.

How to Control Your Spending While Mourning

We all grieve in different ways, and not everyone will be inclined to mindless spending to dull their grief. For those of us with that particular inclination, my most important advice would be to work on alleviating these penchants before they come to the fore. It is of particular importance to dissolve the mental connection made between spending money and feelings of joy and happiness. By abandoning the hedonic treadmill, we can mitigate the urge to spend money when we life lays us low. I believe that the changes in my mindset which I have worked to implement over the past few years are an important contributing factor to why I have been able to avoid going on an all out irrational spending spree this past couple of weeks.

Another way I have been able to kerb detrimental shopping in these difficult times is by looking at the cause of why I want to spend money and try to achieve relief through other means. Realising that I wanted to spend money in an attempt to reassert some control over my destiny, I quickly decided that I could exert control by reallocating funds in a way beneficial to myself and my family, instead of buying meaningless stuff. In other words, instead of buying crap, I took the leap and made some investments I had been eyeing up for a while.

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Don’t let grief and sorrow dictate your spending decisions. Photo by eflon.

In the name of transparency, I would be remiss if I didn’t mention that I did, in fact, give in to my impulses at some points in the last few weeks. As there is nothing quite like reading fantasy for escaping the real world, I loaded up my Kindle with fantasy books that featured on my to-read list. And one day, this one especially full of self-pity, I splurged and bought a new guitar. But wait, don’t condemn me yet! Instead of going all gung-ho and acquiring the exclusive and expensive Gibson model I had my eyes on, I made the sensible choice and bought the far cheaper Epiphone equivalent. Once I have reached my goals for guitar practice, perhaps I will allow myself to upgrade.

My point here is that if there is a time to afford yourself certain allowances outside of what you usually would contemplate, that time is when you are down and beaten. Straying from the norm and giving yourself some leeway can help ease some of the constant pressure of grief, if only for a moment. And, as long as you do it a constructive manner, I am convinced that it will be of benefit in the long run.

What’s Next for Abovare?

In my previous post, I mentioned that I was unsure of what the future of Abovare holds. While our wounds are still fresh, I believe that my partner and I have progressed a little in our grieving process since then. We are taking some time together, without the pressure of tasks and to-do-lists, to allow ourselves to feel the loss of our girl. And, in time, we hope that we will rediscover joy and happiness of normalcy and everyday life.

Until then, I will not be making any promises about the activity level here at Abovare. I have, however, found some relief in reimmersing myself with the subject of personal finance in the last few days. And, as long as it is something I am doing because I want to, you may find me sharing some of the most interesting articles I have read on Twitter, participating in the Rockstar Finance Forums, or even publishing new posts here.

Lastly, I want to thank every one of you who reached out to me after my last post, whether it was in the comments of the post, through email, twitter or elsewhere. I know it’s hard to find the words to share with someone suffering a personal tragedy, but everytime someone reaches out, it feels as if they take a small of my sorrow and makes it their own. And that helps. All the kindness I have experience from friends and strangers alike has made me more hopeful than ever, even as I am going through the most difficult period of my life. And I intend to pay it forward, every chance I get and let that be my daughter’s legacy.

Header photo by Marcela.

Lars-Christian

Lars-Christian started Abovare with the goal of helping people increase their wealth and freedom, to be able to focus on the things that matter in life. With a background in business and an MSc in Economics and Business Administration, Lars-Christian believes that the core concepts of business finance are transferable to your personal finances.

12 thoughts on “How Grief Affects Your Spending Decisions

    1. Thank for commenting, Lance. Yeah, everything gets harder in tough times, I suppose. For me it’s been all about putting my energy in sticking to the important stuff, and instead letting go in less important areas. Staying on an immaculate diet and keeping the house clean, for instance, are things I’ve not given a second thought so far since things took a turn for the worse.

  1. I am so, so sorry for your loss. We went through a series of losses six years ago and I also found myself in this same predicament. I spent over $1,000 on Amazon impulse purchases! For me, I realized it meant I needed to see a counselor, spend time with friends and family, and have meaningful experiences (going for walks, long baths, etc.).

    I hope you can find healing while remembering your little one. <3

    1. Thanks Mrs. PP, for sharing your experiences. I’m glad that you were able to get the necessary help to differentiate the experiences that truly help the healing process from the superficial ones that, when all is said and done, just push us further down the hole.

  2. Allowing yourself to grieve may be incredibly difficult but oh so necessary. It’s good to see you writing and sharing, but totally understandable when you don’t. My thoughts and prayers remain with you, your spouse, and your daughter.

    1. Thanks Amy, for your comment and for your thoughts. I think you’re right that it is important to truly experience the bad feelings, the grief. Otherwise it simply bottles up, and comes out in ways you can’t really imagine.

  3. I’m so glad that this community has helped you a bit. My blog was born out of the loss of my grandma, who was like a second mother. It’s certainly not the same as losing a child, but I do understand how cathartic this community can be. Thinking of you and your partner.

    1. Thanks Penny, and I’m sorry to hear your story of a lost loved one. I don’t think there are any firm guidelines on how much losing who will hurt. The more space someone occupies in your life, and your heart, the more it is going to hurt losing that person. I hope you still have all the great memories of your grandmother, and I’m glad to hear that the community contributed in your healing process.

  4. I am so glad you found the words to continue sharing your story. You are correct, people make poor financial decisions when dealing with grief. It is the minds way of trying to fill the hole in your heart. Unfortunately, you can’t outbuy grief. While it isn’t easy, sharing this process is enlightening to others. Not only to those who have also lost a loved one, but to those who love people who have lost a loved one. I’m keeping you and your partner in my thoughts and wishing you during this time.

    1. Thanks again, Miss Mazuma, for your thoughts and helpful words! I wish it was as easy buying ourselves out of grief, but it isn’t. And I will do what I can to learn as we go along, and try to share that with others if I am able to fit it into the subject matter we typically discuss here.

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